What shall i post today.. Recently, i have been asked to go on leave so i have some time to spare or even to train for my upcoming marathon.

I've been dreaming lately, well who don't dream isn't it? How shall i phrase it? For me, due to some special ability i have, i dream things which is related to a certain things or which has happened or haven't yet. They called it something like "deja-vu".

I dreamt of i have a little kid for the past few months. And it seems to me is a little girl trying/learning to talk. Well, she is a pretty little kid.. But i wasn't sure why i will dream of her or maybe it happen for a reason.

It consistently coming to my dream on and off or would say randomly. I am so puzzled and as well, in the background i saw a guy i am not sure who is this fella. But some how familiar to me.. but well i do not wish to think much at this present moment.

I know there is friends are concerning about me, as recently i had some mood swings and always hide feelings without telling to anyone. It happens after my previous relationship, i started to fear of everything. I appear to be strong but in actual fact i am not. I smile and laugh but my heart still feels hurt.

Colleagues tried to match make but i am fear, my friends match make i am fear too.. seriously i thought i have forgot every things happened to me.. but in fact no.. There's some memories keep stuck in my mind.. some things happened which i will never forget.. even till now..! At times, i feel silly things should have long forget and should have put it down or just jolly well forget but i simply can't.

Maybe girls tends to take longer time to recover than guys. I hate myself to be so emotional.. I hate myself to be so weak.. Simply hate myself..! argh!