Finally i have changed to a better template and i loves it. Much brighter loves the toast grumpy face. hahas!

Oh well, been going for training lately, in sense went for run to improve my speed still not good yet. Stamina still weak, running fast will cause me to see lots of stars.. haha.. but still i am determine to improve as much as possible, as soon i am going to PO camp and i will be running 10km everyday without fail! Which i do not wish to see that..!

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Recently, i am not in a talking terms with my bf anymore. Cause he really breaks my heart badly, i know he's trying his best to change. But i couldn't forget what he has done to me and neglected me for so long. Now than give me the attention i want which i feel is a little to late.

I couldn't myself to open to him anymore and he been wanted to meet me, but.. i can't.. the moment i see him my heart is pain. Everyday, he smsed me, i am pondering whether to return the msg in the end, i choose not to reply him. Only at times, than i will reply him. Not sure why everytime msg him i need to think so much, and it's like a chore for me to send/reply him. Perhaps i have been badly hurt.

I know he's been waiting outside my house everyday and everyday i see flowers and cards. He wrote me many cards, everytime i cry.. Cause now than he realised that he's wrong and doesn't want lost me. But why at the first place he does it? This question always floods in my mind..

He cooked for me spaghetti yesterday, it's nice but when thinking of him it pains again.. I know he's always near me, and he should know why i always get to know things that he presume i doesn't know. And, this get me paranoid.. Everytime checking where he is and make sure i don't get to see him. The moment i see him either i cry or turn emo..

Nevertheless, the flowers sent everyday melts my heart and wanted to forgive him, but recalling the memories make me feel pain which i hesitate and choose not to forgive him. Imagine for a year i have been treated as though controlled by him, his demands of sleep is higher and work too, put me aside and can no need to msg me for mths? and etc.. Everytime i have to be the one to accomadate him, everytime i am the one to please him and not to do what he doesn't like.. No matter what he wants to do, i have to please him.. than what about me..

He always say one-sided love given to me is so tiring than am i not tiring?? He always make comment like this which dishearten me. How much effort i have put as good as throw to the ocean.. Cook for him, wait for him outside his office, surprises for him and so on.. just throw to the ocean and can't be seen.

When i asked for a ring that which cutted previously he can say no need to buy and so on.. excuses all comes up.. and some other stuff.. perhaps this are not necessary?? I couldn't bother about it anymore.. just as simple as that..

What makes me more turn off is about reglion.. He always wanted me to covert to christian but i am reluatant about it. Everytime he brings it up and ended up arguments.. He promised me that what reglion i am in, he wouldn't interfere but in the end, he wants his own way.. I have discussed with him long time ago and we strive a promise.. but.. he broke it..! Everytime trying to psycho me and peach me on this which SERIOUSLY turn me and piss me off.

This is a taboo for me to discuss and yet he does it! I went super emo when he talks about it and i will flare my temper.. For me, reglion thingy is sensitive and every one has their rights to choose who they have faith with. Not for anyone to choose for people!

Due to all this, it makes me keep recalling what he has done and said.. Everytime it's a pain!..

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Enough of my relationship issues, hope time will heals my wounds.. Oh yes! YOG.. recently it just over and i am honoured to do the event with great people. I can't take any photo due to some sensitive issues and so on.. plus i have no time for phototaking as i am too busy on duty..

Only managed to do some snap shoots on the cuties mascots Leo and Merlyn with other ppl..

The 2 mascots was so adorable as they were jumping, dancing and fighting with each other everytime back to their rest point.. even the officals has the hard time to pull them in to rest.. I heard from my friend that she saw the 2 mascots ran and upon seeing all the senior officers coming out, they salute them.. made the whole group laugh.. they are really great awesome entertainer.. especially towards workforce personnel like us.. No matter how tired they are, they will try their best to entertain every single of us.. Kudos!

I really miss them with my working partners.. Madly awesome people, although it's tiring but working with great ppl, you will never feel tired..

All memories shall be always in my heart and mind.. Ok, i am tired.. later i am running.. bye bye!